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Via [personal profile] tim, we have two twitter threads where actual boots-on-the-ground antifa talk about their tactics and the need for their tactics. The first one, especially, emphasizes non-violent direct action to intervene in order to protect vulnerable people, while still being ready to commit violence should all else fail.

It's reassuring to know that organized antifa, black bloc, etc. know what they're doing, know how to deescalate, and have very clear goals. It's also important to reiterate that hate speech isn't nonviolent; speech that threatens to hurt other people is violence. It's a form of terrorism, of making people feel unsafe just because of what they look like or who they love. Or other immutable characteristics.

Personal example involving transphobia )

The thing I expressed concern about, before, wasn't that people were saying they'd punch Nazis; Nazis should fear being punched, when they go to advocate for white supremacy and ethnic cleansing in public. It was that a lot of the people I'd seen on Reddit specifically seemed to be advocating for Nazi-punching from a place of toxic masculinity, and wanting to escalate conflicts to the detriment of more vulnerable people than white cismale Reddit users.

I'm very glad to know that people like that aren't in charge, and that vulnerable groups of people are preparing their / our own defences and tactics. I don't think I can participate in the same ways that they can, but I want to make it clear that I support organized antifa, and am not trying to scare or warn people away from the concept of resisting fascists. Goddess knows we need more people doing so.

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Yesterday, I got stranded a long way from home with no way back.

Content note: A longish story about the hidden costs of being poor, the inhumaneness of "personal responsibility" teachings, and how [personal profile] jewelfox learned to be mean to herself from her abusive family of origin. Contains swearing, transphobia, and poverty-shaming.

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I'm not writing this because I bear a strong grudge that I haven't let go of (although that may be part of it). I'm writing this because this is stuff that has really affected me, and has changed how I see myself whether I want it to or not.

My family of choice, my real loved ones, don't see what I did as unreasonable, and don't want me to see myself as "irresponsible" and a "burden." I don't want to see myself that way, either. So I have to deconstruct why I feel that way, so that I can maybe move past it.

I hope that this helps someone else, who needs to do the same thing. I hope you can learn to value yourself as a person.





* Willful ignorance is the defining trait of religious and political conservatism, as near as I can tell. It is also the defining trait of evil alignment, IMO.

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Someone posted some valid criticisms of certain points we brought up in our last essay, and we were a bundle of nerves at that point so we just pulled the essay and will address those later on.

Overall, we haven't had much energy this week because of anxiety over things that we've been putting off, like bills and mental health things and being screened for disability. That last one involved a public transit adventure, which included slipping and falling on pavement and walking about 2 km on the side of the highway in the rain. Thanks to Google Maps being inaccurate, we still would have missed our appointment, if some people at a Christian ministry we stumbled across hadn't let us use their phone and then given us a ride down the road to the place we were supposed to be at.

We are currently scraped up a bit and sore all over, but bandaged and mostly okay.

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As an aside, Dreamwidth email posting does not seem to be working for us right now, which is making it hard to attach a picture to the other post that we wanted to write.

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The game store we played D&D Encounters at is feeling a little less welcoming lately. The owners are friendly, and went to a pride parade in New York and used to give us rides home so we didn't have to walk back for an hour and a half. But they've also got Chick-Fil-A as one of their sponsors for an upcoming fundraiser event.

We wrote them to just mention how we weren't sure we'd feel comfortable being reminded of what it was like, seeing the crowds in front of that restaurant on "show the gays you hate them day 2012" before going to play D&D at their store. But they kind of blew us off in several long-winded paragraphs.

We're considering buying our RPG books at Barnes and Noble now, and spending time at a different game store that's more convenient to get to and that one of our (few) local friends goes to. It helps that it's near the bus station. We'd have to stop going to Encounters ... but our apprehension about spending an hour and a half walking back since the buses don't run that late has kind of done that for us already.

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  • When I moved here, I basically plunked us down in the Eternal Suburbs half an hour from any bus stops and several hours from the cities where stuff actually happens. And when we do get on the bus, people here treat it like their living room and have loud conversations with each other about how people like me ought to die, or yell at me about how Jesus saves. And they don't even know I'm trans yet.

  • There is no one in my life right now that I've known for more than four years. Except for my aunt that I call on the weekends.

  • There are games in boxes, that I'm sorting through, that I haven't played because I was waiting to play them with mom like we used to when I was little. Except that she never did, never would, and now never will.

  • There are so many times I tried to share something with one or another of my parents, some game or movie or experience, and they either left partway through or turned it down outright.

  • There are so many conversations I had with them trying to tell them about something important to me, even as basic as vegetarianism or my love of Free Software and the Creative Commons, and they were skeptical and incredulous and took it as a personal affront.

  • I used to pray for them every night. "Heavenly Father, I thank thee for my family and friends. Please bless them that they'll be okay. Please help me to please them and do good things for them." I wanted it so much. I'd pray for them individually sometimes, and promise to do things for them, and apologize for not doing enough.

  • Now when I find myself praying for that, I have to remind myself of who my family and friends actually are.

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