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Content note: Money, and shiny personal electronics which may be unattainable for many readers.

So, I mentioned that [ profile] alias-pseudonym got us a Kobo Aura while we vacationed with it. It's a gorgeous e-reader that lets us get books from Kobo's Canadian store, and we've picked out a long wish list of political / educational books to try to get up-to-date.

Alias has been kind of unreasonably generous to us in the past year, though. In under twelve months we've gotten a refurb MacBook, an iPod, a Vita, a PS TV and a capture card, a replacement of basically every part in our MacBook after we destroyed it by accident, and now an eReader.

You'd think we'd be happy about all this, but instead we feel very guilty. And after going over finances for supporting us later this year, we're starting to ask just how much of this lifestyle is sustainable.

Growing up as a nerd with no money

We grew up not having a lot, but wanting the electronics that we read about. In books at the library, in Sears catalogs, in store displays, in games and computer and science magazines ... they were our windows onto a magical world.

We quickly learned that devices could be our friends, and also that complicated boardgames were more interesting than normal ones. We hugged our old stylus-based PDA like it was our favourite plushie.

Nowadays, we look at people's anime shelves, Warhammer collections, or even gaming PCs, and it kind of inspires us. We collect pictures of people's collections.

It's just, now that there are fewer limits to what we can get, we a) get more than we can use, and b) feel bad about what we have sometimes. And about being materialistic.

It used to be that we'd read about a game like Sid Meier's Civilization and it would be years before we could play it. Winning a year's worth of video game rentals was amazing. >///> As was going through garage sale castoffs, or store discount bins, and finding rare treasures like Atari Jaguars. Which we could sometimes even persuade mom to get for us.

Pre-apocalyptic scavengers

So this scarcity mindset, that we got from (sometimes literally) scavenging through people's garbage, is part of the reason we have a huge backlog of books and games. We make pages-long wish lists of things that look interesting, the way eight-year-old us did while reading the catalog. And then when the Steam Winter Sale or a PSN Flash Sale comes around, we have to grab all the things since this may be our only chance to try them!!!

And [ profile] alias-pseudonym plays along since it loves spoiling us. ^^;;; And doesn't have to pay for our day-to-day expenses right now.

I don't think there's anything wrong with shopping for things that you like. People make fun of "mindless consumerism," but shopping feels like doing the work of survival, like being a hunter-gatherer. The problem isn't "Affluenza," or "kids looking for instant gratification," it's that American society has decided that this is the best thing ever and wages literal wars so we can have cheap oil and bananas. And that other first-world countries do the same thing, to a greater or lesser extent.

It's not an individual problem, and it's not going to be solved by individual actions. Having said that, I'm not looking for ways to cure sick societies. I'm just doing some soul-searching ... asking myself how much of what feels like greed comes from marketing, and how much of my shame comes from my religious upbringing. And what a "sustainable" lifestyle would look like, at least on Alias' pay.

Shifting priorities

I think the first thing I'm trying to do is be more selective about what I let in my life. Each of the devices I have isn't just a tool or a comfort object, it's a storefront that makes it really easy to spend too much money. Making wish lists is fun, but I'm trying to limit myself by only getting new things when I'm finished with something else. Or when I'm sure it's an app that I'll use every day.

As far as having all these devices goes, that's maybe just something I need to feel better about. We averaged the costs, and getting a new MacBook every four years plus a new iPod every three years is only like $40 CAD a month. We don't watch TV (except YouTube and Crunchyroll) and we're getting a basic phone just for emergencies, so we also have fewer expenses than other people to worry about. Compared to our food budget, or even train fare, it's incredibly cheap.

The Vita feels kind of extravagant when we already have an iPod, but we like the games much more and have gotten a ton of use out of it. Meanwhile, the capture card and PS TV have helped bring our long-distance family closer together by letting us stream games on Twitch. They and the eReader should all last us years, and they let us play localized Japanese games and read Canadian-market books ... both things which are very important to us.

Also, you can load fanfic onto an eReader. It's true!

Two more things

We take good care of our electronics (the Orange Juice Incident is the only time we've destroyed a laptop), and we regularly sell or give away stuff we don't use anymore. Our PS3 now sits in [ profile] thatnerdlord's apartment, while all of our previous phones and game consoles have found new owners on eBay. (Well, except for the $10 Obamaphone we haven't yet donated.)

Finally, in being more selective about what we get we've been finding new things that we like much better than heavily-marketed games, and that we really want to support. Like the webcomic Goodbye to Halos, an amazing adventure that stars a cute trans girl who gets to kiss furries. Or the Endless Fantasy Tactics miniatures game, which was made by a trans woman and is basically a tabletop version of Final Fantasy Tactics. Meanwhile, basically all of our money from selling our PSP went to support BubbleSort Zines 2.0.

There are so many Kickstarters and Patreons, you guys. >_>; And so many things which deserve to exist, even more than Nintendo's new console does. (Fun fact: Ruling out 'games with white male protagonists,' 'games which glorify gun violence,' and 'games where you murder indigenous people' makes almost all AAA games invisible.)

We're okay with getting fewer things, if the ones that we have make us feel better about ourself and our place in the world. And we're okay with Alias buying us electronics, or with saving up for expensive devices, if they last us a long time and delight us the entire way.

Date: 2017-03-05 04:24 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] alatefeline
This all makes a lot of sense to me! I have a nice phone and a nice compy, and while I do very little gaming per se, the things that they let me access are important to me. And I have also been shifting my consumption to prioritize getting things by people I want to support.

Money and not-enough-money still really suck, though. :(

Date: 2017-03-05 04:47 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] alatefeline
>> The whole point of capitalism is to create wealth for the few, and scarcity for everyone else. <<

Yes... It keeps people compliant through fear and suffering.

I am considering making a post about my own financial frustrations, but I feel like I don't have the emotional fortitude to do that *and* the money-related chores and paperwork I need to accomplish this weekend. Sigh. Useful signal boosts, coping skills posts, creative things, and gratitude lists seem to be thing people like reading, so I want to do them. Especially making my story words, but that one's hard.

I want to support people whose stories and art make me feel seen and known and honored, and those that expand my concept of the limits of sentient possibility, and those that give me a sense of wonder and astonishment and breathless stunned appreciation. I want especially to honor and support the people who are telling their truth (and their truthful fictions!!!) in ways and as people who are regularly shoved aside, ignored, silenced, killed, erased. I want to escape sometimes, and I want to come back better prepared - travel-worn, care-lightened, sadder-but-wiser, thrilled, or heartened - to address the world I have to live in.

Specifics...huh. Long list that I don't feel up to making right now. Maybe that will be one of my next posts!!!

I think, if you are regularly producing creative projects and have the potential to do more if motivated, that starting a Patreon would be a good idea, but only if you can commit to that. If you can find ten to twenty households (you can count me in) who will tell you that they would sign up to support you for even one or two dollars a month on Patreon, than that many (above whatever fees exist) would be your base for signal boosting your creative projects, and might bring in more over time if you consistently make shiny things.

I think you absolutely can write books! You may want to find the audience and then write the book; or write the book first and then find the audience. If you want to do that, it is your choice. As is any other kind of art. :)

Doing creative work if one can is a good idea. Yes. We NEED the stories. Especially the stories that the kyriarchy tries to silence.

Date: 2017-03-06 05:00 pm (UTC)
redsixwing: Red-winged angel staring at a distant star. (Default)
From: [personal profile] redsixwing
>> We're okay with getting fewer things, if the ones that we have make us feel better about ourself and our place in the world.

It sounds like you've started to strike a good balance to me. ^^ I'm working on this too - albeit from a different angle. For a long time, video games were forbidden fruit, and then they were heavily restricted fruit instead. (This may have been normal, I am somewhat lacking in context.)

Electronics can be fun! And they can last really well, and it sounds like you take good care of them. (Truth: I have also poured fruit juice on a laptop by mistake. I was trying to show someone on the webcam the contents of a bowl, and it was unexpectedly juicy.*)

>>There are so many Kickstarters and Patreons, you guys.

Oh my gosh, yes. >_> I love finding things by indie artists, things that just need..a little... more... to fly, and also things that chime with my interests but can't get enough people behind them to go mainstream. Stories unlike what I can find in the one sorry bookstore left to this little town, which carries the literary equivalent of Oscar movies and some really nice nonfiction. Art of all forms, particularly that which isn't white cisdude power fantasies. (Also, Reaper Bones, because they are SO fun to paint.)

If you had a Patreon, I would put money toward it. ^^

I'm particularly fond, as a backer, of the option where the creator gets a monthly donation regardless of what they've made - not because the cost-per-art drops as the artist makes more, but because if they have a month where they can't make anything, they still get paid.

*Unexpectedly Juicy would make a great band name, if that silly meme is still funny.

Date: 2017-03-06 08:42 pm (UTC)
redsixwing: Red-winged angel staring at a distant star. (Default)
From: [personal profile] redsixwing
Heeee. Definitely. *ahem*

>> so what am I charging for? us an opportunity to pay you for your work?

I had not seen that RPG. Thank you! It looks really cool. :D
My Blue Rose should be here.. uh, sometime. >.>

Date: 2017-03-10 05:33 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] alatefeline
Good luck!

If you post about making the things, I'll try to remember to signal boost.


Date: 2017-03-13 04:58 pm (UTC)
redsixwing: Red-winged angel staring at a distant star. (Default)
From: [personal profile] redsixwing
Oh, cool! I will have to check that one out, thanks. n_n

Blue Rose... well, I got my payment confirmation today. So it should be shipping very soon? I'm hoping it lives up to its "non-combat-focused RPG" hype. I could use some problem-solving that doesn't involve swords in my fantasy lives. >.>

Date: 2017-03-13 09:17 pm (UTC)
redsixwing: Red-winged angel staring at a distant star. (Default)
From: [personal profile] redsixwing

I've played very little Fate, but did like what I saw of the mechanics.

>>You can also use the Create an Advantage action to goad them into making a mistake (or anything else), without needing a feat that says you can first.

Now that's really nice.

Will do! I'll do a rules dive when I get the time to do it. (Er, I bought the KS-bonus shiny pendant because it has roses and deer, and those are both apparently Things for me? So that might get squee before the rules, hahaha.)

Date: 2017-03-14 04:03 pm (UTC)
redsixwing: Red-winged angel staring at a distant star. (Default)
From: [personal profile] redsixwing
That might be really pretty! Translucent enamel paint would take advantage of the polished surface...

That's cool! xD

Date: 2017-03-16 03:13 pm (UTC)
redsixwing: Red-winged angel staring at a distant star. (Default)
From: [personal profile] redsixwing
Yeah, they have some seriously nasty solvents. Very pretty results, though. n_n

How is this going?

Date: 2017-04-02 05:31 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] brainwane
Hi! I came back across this post and wanted to ask how this approach is working out for you, a few weeks later -- I myself am trying to be more intentional about what comes into my home.

Also have you checked out [community profile] access_fandom?

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