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... where some of our entries have gone, why we haven't been posting or replying much, and why we've been acting strangely in general. ^^;

Relationship and mental health stuff )

I hope you're all doing okay out there! Insofar as is possible, anyway, omg.

Also Alias drew this new avi awhile back, but I hadn't updated my DW yet. Oops!

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Because I've known people who identify as younger than their chronological age, on the inside, and I'm starting to realize that this is one of the biggest things we're struggling with right now.

Identitythings and dysphoria )

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It reminds me of the wide-eyed idealism I had, the kind that takes an awful lot to crush but they somehow managed it.

It was a really big part of my life, and it's so easy to think of myself as still part of that community.

Maybe I just shouldn't think about it at all anymore.

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Things. How does one do them?

I think it was [personal profile] siderea who recently posted a thing about all the stuff you're supposed to be able to do, to live a fulfilling life, and how most people only do a few of those. Especially if they're disabled.

I'm trying to take in all this stuff I need to learn about a completely new country, and everything else is falling behind. We still don't have internets to stream with, and writing fanfics and replies? Painting miniatures? Keeping up with my reading page and RSS? Even playing tabletop / video games? When am I supposed to do those things? To say nothing of trying to write for the moneys, whether from Patreon or corporate overlords.

How do I thing, everyone?

Today

Jul. 18th, 2017 01:04 am
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I waited awhile for the internet person, who still didn't show up.

I felt sick from eating unfamiliar food, and from forgetting to take my medicine for almost eight hours.

I discovered an old and unusual game that was still kind of interesting.

I made soup.

Also

Jul. 15th, 2017 06:09 pm
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We've been borrowing the neighbours' wi-fi for the past week. >_>; Supposedly we're going to have our own internets on Monday, so please look forward to streams ...

... in between getting a shared bank account with [tumblr.com profile] alias-pseudonym, getting shoes purchased / repaired, and meeting up with an old friend.

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We miss you so much. It's been a week now, and you haven't visited our little apartment. We waited all day yesterday for you to come by, and we got stood up.

Now you say we won't see you until next Friday. Why? Are we just not good enough for you? Do you not like the friends we've been seeing? Is it something we said?

Please come back, internet access. We miss you. ; ;

Signed,

A foxgem who brought her laptop to [tumblr.com profile] alias-pseudonym's parents' house, which has wi-fi

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And we miss [personal profile] chozomind so much, omg ; ;

We and [tumblr.com profile] alias-pseudonym have a lot of work to do to get our apartment set up. >_> We have visitor papers that let us go in and out of the country at will until the end of the year ... here's hoping we can immigrate and do everything we're supposed to

... happy belated Canada Day?

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Sometimes, when I'm feeling nervous, I try to comfort my inner child by showing her stuff that she would have been amazed by. Remembering how I would have felt, if I'd gotten to see (for example) a handheld console that looked like my Game Gear* or GBA, but was much more powerful than even an N64.

My inner child is still afraid of anything that isn't sufficiently Mormon, though, so I also have to reassure her that stuff like cute visual novels isn't going to corrupt us or hurt anyone. ^^;

I don't think she's a literal person, so much as that when I get anxious I kind of regress to when I was living in fear all the time. Then I have to coax myself back out, or at least try to make myself comfortable enough that I start to feel better.

Writing Prompt

Does anyone else (not) do this? What sort of things comfort you? For us it's toys, games, and especially electronics, because we were privileged to have access to things like computers from an early age. And they were our escape.




* I bought it when I was 10, with the prize money from winning a regional spelling bee, and carried it with me everywhere. Even though I couldn't afford batteries (6x AA batteries lasted like six hours in this thing), and had to rely on AC and car adapters. It was my treasure.

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This is a response to 'Hello, my name is Ally' -- how children are being exploited by YouTube predators.

The link goes into slightly graphic detail about fetish material. This short essay discusses in broad terms what's happened to me and to others, but is not itself graphic.

Read more... )

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