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A lot of people, when they start to transition genders physically and socially, have to do so "on the fly," so to speak. Meaning they have to transform their bodies and lives while they're living (in) them, holding down jobs or studying or taking care of their families.

I personally don't have to do this (and folded quickly the last time I tried). With my family of choice taking extremely good care of me, I have only two jobs right now: Recover from PTSD, and transition genders. Or in other words, paint miniatures and grow breasts.

I am succeeding at at least one of these things.

Not NSFW this time but may be TMI if you don't want to read about Jewelfox's feelings and boobs )

jewelfox: A portrait of a foxgryphon with a beak, black fur, magenta hair, fox ears, and a neckband with a large jewel on it. (Default)

Content note: Enforcing of gender roles, lack of respect for others' identities.

After going to the psychiatrist the other day, we and [personal profile] rev_yurodivy went to the local games store to play Warmahordes. I still haven't finished painting my models, but I cut out a bunch of counters and cards so that we can play games using proxies for the models in the other starter box sets. Also things like blast and spray templates. (This was a lot of work, and I'm very proud of the results.)

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jewelfox: A portrait of a foxgryphon with a beak, black fur, magenta hair, fox ears, and a neckband with a large jewel on it. (Default)

I don't have a lot of clean clothes to wear to a social outing tomorrow.

If I wear the clothes I don't like, I'll look unmistakably male (but with long hair).

If I wear the clothes I do like, I won't be able to use gendered restrooms.

I considered just saying "to heck with it" and overtly presenting as female, meaning wearing makeup and prosthetics. But if I do that, I run the risk of being identified as a trans woman, whether by my voice slipping, my appearance not being perfect, or a clueless acquaintance outing me.

(Content note: Transphobia and anatomy.)

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jewelfox: A portrait of a foxgryphon with a beak, black fur, magenta hair, fox ears, and a neckband with a large jewel on it. (Default)
So today I wore gender-appropriate clothing for the first time since the FWA fiasco. It took me a little while to figure out which outfit I liked best, and why. And once I'd gotten myself cleaned up and dressed, I found myself facing a lot of the same nervousness and identity issues I'd been earlier.

Ramble ramble ramble )

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