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Which still isn't related to MLP, but is [personal profile] spectrum_x's term for basically a gentler form of channeling a god(dess) or spirit. In my case, Inari, who's the only one I feel close enough to.

I was trolling the LDS (Mormon) community on DeviantArt last night, which is basically the online version of asking Armor Piercing Questions in Sunday School. Which I used to do, even when I was a believer. It was just really nervewracking though, especially once I realized their lies, because I was scared to death I'd be "disciplined" for what I said.

Even now, I still have that need to be accepted, and that feeling that if I am not I'll be hurt. What they say isn't just words to me; it's piercing personal judgment. It shows that I'm a bad person, that I won't have what I need, that I'm foolish and wrong and dangerous. v!T's especially sensitive about that last part, while I feel depressed and erased to have people express disbelief at who I am.

So I asked Inari to check on the replies for me, and she hung around for a few. >.>b

What it was like )
jewelfox: A portrait of a foxgryphon with a beak, black fur, magenta hair, fox ears, and a neckband with a large jewel on it. (Default)
I don't usually write about the occult, because I don't think about it a whole lot. I'm not as scared of it as I used to be, though, and can actually think objectively about it ... both in terms of "what is the evidence for this," and in terms of "what works for me personally" and "was this a good experience". And seeing as how [personal profile] avia, [personal profile] spectrum_x and [personal profile] mesh_mask are all writing about it lately, I thought I'd chime in with my thoughts and experiences.

Channeling / 'ponying' )

Tarot reading )

Magic and spellcasting )

I'm very much open to suggestions.

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