Despite our disenchantment with Microsoft, we still use and rely on OneNote. It's a free cross-platform app, with free online syncing and no ads, and it takes pictures and formatted text and automatically cites stuff that we copy and paste from online.
Anyway, we've collected a lot of quotes about how it's not surprising to find ourself as a hikikomori / part of the underclass, all things considered. And how we still contribute to society despite being devalued economically. And how society's requirements are unreasonable to begin with, especially when it plays favourites so blatantly.
It's actually kind of a source of hope and encouragement to read them. Sort of like 15 years ago, when we were first starting to come to terms with the idea that we're fundamentally "a writer" and couldn't be happy doing the jobs that the people around us were pressuring us to do. Which led to our taking it seriously and getting a lot of practice, and eventually led to us supporting ourself and another person through writing things that were important to us.
They also note that Apple stuff's been getting cheaper, while housing, education, and health care are all priced for the upper class. Which kind of puts things in perspective, and makes us feel better about owning an iPod and wanting a Mac.
I mean. There are billboards here in the States that advertise schools and hospitals. Srsly. Like, a lot of them.
In the past few weeks, a lot of the hurdles to obtaining health care and such here have been worked out. More than that, burning_ground has proven to be a very good friend and supportive Internet Family Member, and aliaspseudonym / spinecrawlerrush is now talking about planning a future with us and visiting late next month.
We've gotten out of the habit of checking on Dreamwidth, and have set our fanfiction aside temporarily. But in other spheres of our life -- Final Fantasy XI, miniatures, and earning spending money on Mechanical Turk -- we've actually been Getting Stuff Done. Like, a lot more than usual, and a lot more regularly than usual. A day where we could do anything but read depressing stuff used to be rare, but now we can count on at least a couple hours of work every day. And save up for things, and have dreams and ambitions, even if they don't resemble most people's.
I feel like accepting our place in the underclass, as someone who's not valued enough by society to even be exploited as a labourer, is actually part of that. Because we've gone from seeing ourself as a failed member of the working class, whose struggles are all her fault, to seeing ourself as someone who's lost a lot of life's lotteries but has people who love and support her.
Knowing that, and having that support, has given us a lot of strength lately. It's not something that we're used to.
We can share some of the quotes that we've found if anyone's interested. Today we just wanted to talk about how we're feeling, lately.
Warmachine, and its companion game, Hordes, were made in the United States. Warhammer 40,000 was made in Great Britain.
The more I think about it, the more I feel like this explains a lot of the differences between the two games.
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"Grimdark" means different things to different people. To some (but definitely not all) 40k players it's a realization of their fantasies ... of being the Defender Of All That Is Normal and getting to shoot up those icky, scary outsiders.
See, the great thing about the Tau isn't just their anime mecha.
It's that despite being small and "insignificant," they keep winning. Against the fascist, blood-and-skulls-loving Imperium. Not because they are better at dealing death, or because their technology is more advanced, but because they value diversity. They make friends out of their enemies, and work together to make things better for everyone.
Also, we like acting out fantasy lazor battles with our miniatures. Battles which are about as far removed from actual warfare and gun fetishism as magical girl anime is.
Now if only there were a magical girl minis game.
Check out this mech:
This is the XV95 Ghostkeel battlesuit, the latest in Tau stealth technology. And the one that Games Workshop's weekly magazine is doing action shots of, decloaking inside the Cadian lines, has a female pilot. Plus, the model has a feature where you can pop open the cockpit and put a pilot figure inside, and it includes a female head for her (with a Y-shaped nasal opening instead of an I-shaped one).
Even better? This week's issue confirms that a female head is included in the new box of Fire Warriors. The one that also comes with the new pulse shotgun weapons, the MV36 Guardian Drone, and the DS8 Tactical Support Turret, plus pieces for markerlight drones. <3
These are our most basic troops, the ones pretty much every Tau player will buy when they're just starting out. And you can model one helmetless soldier as a woman, one who wears the same beat-up armour as everyone else and is doing the same dangerous jobs.
Our faction's fluff already said we had gender equality. But in practice we rarely saw female representation in models, Shadowsun notwithstanding. I once had an opponent put up a fuss about being corrected on my models' pronouns, despite the fact that he also played Tau and he knew that we fielded Fire Caste troops of all genders.
Obviously, there's still a long way to go before women can be considered "equal" in 40k, both at the gaming table and on its imagined battlefield. But this is an amazing first step. I'm so proud of them :')
A box of Fire Warriors would come with the following:
- Six, instead of twelve, Fire Warriors. (Gun drones are sold separately.)
- Twelve cards with artwork and rules text.
- One "SERGEANT" token for the Shas'ui.
- Six "WOUND" tokens.
- One "PINNED" token.
- One "FEAR" token.
- One "CHALLENGE" token.
- One "GO TO GROUND" token.
- One "PHOTON GRENADE" token, double-sided to show if you've thrown it this turn.
- One "EMP GRENADE" token, also double-sided.
- Four "BLIND" tokens to put on the targets you hit with the photon grenade.
- One token to show that they're inside a transport.
- And one last token, to show that they're in reserve.
You would not be able to use it unless you had bought the WARHAMMER 40,000 STARTER SET for $99, which includes one Space Marine Dreadnought and three Chaos bikers. Along with blast templates, cardboard range rulers, two decks of cards in different sizes, twelve six-sided dice with weird symbols on them, an insert that says where to download the dice-roller app, and enough different kinds of tokens that only fishers and jewelry hobbyists already have an appropriate box for them on hand.
On the plus side, at least their points cost would be balanced.
(Fantasy Flight Games produces Twilight Imperium, the XCOM board game, the X-Wing miniatures game, and a whole bunch of other board games. They are notorious for their token fetish.)
Image credit: JT Custom Tackle, used without permission.
We're still feeling kind of icky and stuff, partly because our hormones have decided to change up our temperature tolerances >_o
Aaand we flip-flopped between Linux and Windows 8.1 a few times before settling on the latter, and finding ways to block a lot of the annoying commercialism, like Skype ads and "Upgrade to Windows 10!" banners.
But we're feeling better and less stressed now, and while we still have things to sort out we should be able to have a DW site up for the RP (along with the players' finalized character sheets) within a week or so.
We wanted to let everyone know, and also to know that we haven't forgotten to work on our fanfic or anything. Also, we somehow got three Malifaux models assembled, and are eagerly (and somewhat anxiously) awaiting next month's long-rumoured Tau releases.
Check out these miniatures!
You can see more photos and read the full writeup on Polygon. I'm just thinking of all the uses for Portal minis now:
Give one of our Shas'uis a portal gun
Make the companion cube an objective marker
Surprise RPG players by changing the "dungeon" into a test chamber
Just imagine teaching someone to play Fate, Dungeon World, or Pathfinder by throwing their character into the Enrichment Centre. ^^ Or using the slices of cake (not pictured above) as victory points in 40k or another game.
... did I mention I am apparently good at impersonating GLaDOS?
The following is from me rambling at aliaspseudonym on Skype, after spending hours trying to untangle this cursed mind knot of how I actually feel about different miniatures games. I'm copy-and-pasting it here because it reads like the draft of an essay, which I just wrote extemporaneously.
9:21 PM Jewelfox feels like 40k's story is actually one of its big selling points, but not in the way you'd expect >_>
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