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Last night I posted a (kinda depressing) thing about not being able to do the online RP we've been planning. I pulled it after I'd calmed down and been able to rest, but I'm still not sure that we're stable enough right now to be "always-on," so to speak, and to be able to do things like reply to creative writing prompts on demand. Especially when things keep happening, multiple times in a week, that set us back and make it impossible to keep to any kind of a daily schedule.

That's not to say that we don't want to GM an RP, or that we can't, period. But I don't think the play-by-post format will work for us, because it takes a lot of effort to "shift gears" to be able to write for it. And having to do that on an as-needed basis, just in the character planning phase, has been making us dread posting on Dreamwidth and leaving comments unanswered.

Or not having our comments answered.

I think what would work better for us would be to schedule times to go on a chat app, or even a forum like here on DW, and GM a game for a few hours, all at once and with no interruption. It would give us deadlines to prepare for, and also help us relax in our "time off." It would also improve our responsiveness, since we're very good at being focused and on-task when needed and the problem is not knowing when we will need to do that (and feeling like we are getting further and further behind when we need just a day or two to stop doing it).

I'm going to just assume that no one wants to do a chat-based or "live" forum RP, right now, and consider the one we were working on dead. I'm probably then going to avoid Dreamwidth out of shame for awhile. If anyone wants to try this format, though, I guess we can talk about where to go next in the comments.

Date: 2015-09-12 11:22 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sablin27
I'd be happy with a live forum or chat app. (Though I suppose I should warn you that I am not a speedy typist.)

I thought, inasmuch as I considered the matter at all, that that was probably the plan after character creation, considering how co-operative the Fate system is.

I'd enjoy doing scheduled sessions if that works for you.

If it doesn't work for you, for any reason, that's cool, too. Sometimes things don't work out.

Leisure pursuits shouldn't take more from anyone than they have to spare.

Date: 2015-09-15 10:45 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sablin27
Either method works for me.


I'm not sure if this will reassure you, but:

Part of what I like about stories and RPs is that they're this beautiful conceptual system. People project an idea of how the world works and weave in how the people in the world think and act and pick out the bits of life that they find interesting and code in inspiration from and reactions to those bits of life and there's pacing and continuity and word choice... A good story is just really beautiful on multiple levels.

But part of my job is digitising records of the abilities of specific children in great detail.

"Rolls playdough." "Can count to twenty consecutively." "Likes simple rhymes." "Can recognise people they spend more than three hours a day with." "Greets people appropriately." "Understands that humans need exercise in order to be healthy."

There's just so much people can do. So many concepts skills we learn and apply and never think about. The instrumental value of a person is incredibly vast. And I suspect most adults have a couple of those basic things they still can't do or struggle with. (I'm horrible at, "Accepts criticism gracefully," in face-to-face interaction despite dealing very well with it with any sort of delay or remove.)

(And then we move onto the National Curriculum. (I'm not sure if there's an American equivalent.)

Imagine if someone spent years digging out a cave system. Tunnelling, building in supports, carving patterns into the walls and rock spires into vast incredibly realistic statues. They make the footing less treacherous by patching up the holes and building platforms by streams and over too-smooth stone. They insulate an area to be dry and not too cold fill it with a vast library of books, which they write by hand. Other people help sometimes, carving and offering their own books.

It's not perfect. Maybe some parts are still a bit rough. Some parts need constant upkeep. Maybe the carvings are ugly and threatening. Maybe it's too dark to see. Maybe more work needs doing. Maybe it's as perfect as can be and no more work needs doing and no improvement can be achieved. Maybe it is slowly being eroded away and lost.

That's how I see people. All that innate value.

I don't understand how you can considering one worthless.

Date: 2015-09-15 06:20 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sablin27
I think I ended up on your journal by some arcane process of link-surfing and read some of your fanfiction (in a fandom I knew nothing about). The journal seemed fairly interesting, so I tracked it and eventually I felt moved to comment.

I... have no idea if that behaviour is considered creepy on web-journals. It all made sense at the time.

I'm a rapacious reader, but I tend to hoard anything I write that is not a direct response to something online, until some mythical time when it is better. So, all my profiles look like that.

Date: 2015-09-13 03:59 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] redsixwing
I'm sorry to hear it. I'm probably not able to do scheduled sessions right now because my schedule is a failcake right at this little moment, but if you try again in the future, I'll be around.

Take care of yourself, okay? It's tough to realize something won't work, but I'm certainly not upset with you, and Sablin doesn't look upset either.

Date: 2015-09-15 03:41 pm (UTC)
redsixwing: Red-winged angel staring at a distant star. (Default)
From: [personal profile] redsixwing
No problem - it's good to talk things out. This sort of format is good for sort of a talk-through-things process, I find. *hug* Also, thanks - and no need to stop, it's fine. (This is your space. You get to talk about whatever you want in it.) And thanks, for being my friend too. :)

That's actually pretty exciting, I think? I mean: it's still a tough thing to deal with perfectionism but it's maybe more tractable than scheduling issues? (IDK, but I hope so, anyway.) I hope it's reassuring to say I'm not upset or impatient with the exchanges we've had, anyway. :)

I think asynchronous, play-by-post RPing is something that I could do, if I am reminded to take care of myself (and that doing so is more important than replying) and if it is okay to only post every few days like you said. Which, we'd probably go a few days with no action, and then do a flurry of posts and replies when we can.

Hooray! This is the exciting bit right here.
And: yes, you have it exactly right - the usual pace I see in every online game I've ever been in is a short break, then a flurry of action, then another break - and sometimes they aren't even short. xD

...Nuclear explosion post? ^^; I'm afraid I don't follow; which one do you mean? (If it's the family one, it's not RP related at all.)

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